Maledicte

• I got my driver's license today! I can now tool around in my car on my own! The test was stupidly easy. Like, why-did-I-bother-getting-anxious-over-this easy. And short. Like... 15 minutes in the car all told? Idk. Still, YAY I CAN DRIVE. Also, I got an 8-year license, so I probably won't have to deal with this again for a long long while.

• Went to work, did work things.

• Went to a friend's housewarming party (omg, her apartment is awesome, I am jealous), came home listening to the mix CDs that dragon_gypsy made me. :)

• Found half of a chipmunk on my bed. Dutifully thanked my cats (it means they love me!) before disposing of it, stripping the duvet cover off my comforter and putting it in the wash, and scrubbing away at the bitty blood stain on my comforter with stain remover. You can barely tell anything died on my bed now. (/urk)

• Am waiting to shower until duvet cover is in the dryer. (/twiddles thumbs)

• I get to drive my mom to the airport tomorrow! I am excited about this. I like long drives, so I will bring lots of CDs, I'll get something to drink in Albuquerque, and then have fun on the way back by myself. Then Monday I get to pick her up at midnight. :) I love driving at night. I am excited for this adventure.

Yeah, that's all I got. DRIVER'S LICENSE HOORAY.

• I watched The Eagle last night. (For those of you who follow me on Twitter, I'm sorry. I use live-tweeting movies and shows as a way to diffuse my tension with the things. Thus: Y'all get spammed.) Fun fact: there's not a single woman with a speaking line in the movie. There's this one slave woman who gives Marcus a bowl of soup, and then we never see her again. There's also the Seal Prince's sister, who giggles while Marcus (Tatum Channing) grins at her. But that's it. No women at all. They weren't even trying to hide all the GAY that this movie sprouted.

• Another Fun Fact: I fell asleep last night composing smut fanfic for this movie in my head. So much gay. All the fic needs to be written. I've decided that I'm not going to read fic for it until after I've written some, because someone has probably written my idea, and I just want to do it my way. So. (Yes, dragon_gypsy, you were right. I write fic for everything. I am a terrible person.)

• Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers on my flist! (Includes: human children and animal children. I totally call myself my cats' mom.) It's a beautiful sunny day here, even if it is windy, and I'm going to do laundry and cuddle with my cats and write some of my last papers. Which should all equal a pretty relaxing day, all told! I hope you all have relaxing days! Don't forget to call your mothers, grandmothers, mothers-in-law, godmothers, and your best-friends' moms. :) (Or at least email.)

• There is a flat stretch of dirt road down in the valley here. I had my dad drive it, and one lap of it is 3/10 of a mile. I'm figuring that I ought to be able to do some running down there this summer, and get in shape. (My grandfather is in better shape than I am. Seriously.) Also, a friend of mine is moving into an apartment complex that has a pool. I anticipate lots of swimming to get back in shape. It's not really that I'm out of shape, but I'm tired of one walk up the hill tiring me out completely. Ugh.

• I'm back on the hunt for a car. I really really really do not want to go another summer without a car of my own. It might actually drive me crazy. I want to be able to go out and have fun without having to get a ride home from my dad early enough for him to go to sleep early like the old man he's starting to become. (Actually, I love my dad. But he likes to be asleep by 10pm, which kills a lot of my social life.) I think that the range for how much we can spend on it might be able to go up a bit, which means that the quality of car will go up a bit too. Which is great. I just want to be able to go out at night. (/fingers crossed)

• I need to talk to my boss about summer hours. I sent him an email about a month ago letting him know I would be available if he had anything for me, but I never heard anything back. (Not entirely surprising, as he's known to forget that sort of stuff and my email didn't exactly call for a response.) But since we're coming down to the last two weeks of school (!!!) it would be nice to get that all ironed out so I can have an estimate on how much money I'll be making over the summer. (You know, in September, I'll have been working at this place for two years. That's a lot!)

And it's time to go put laundry in and get on with the day.

• I have updated my icons a bit. Which makes me happy. I now have some delicious Cesare/Lucrezia icons, and some Hawaii Five-0 icons that I like better than some of the ones I had. Whee!

• Last night I dreamed that I had sex with Steve McGarrett while he told me how much better I was in bed than Catherine Rollins. It was really weird but also really hot.

• I am thinking about buying a used clarinet in good condition (and for not too expensive) and reteaching myself how to play. We've been studying Beethoven's "Eroica Symphony" in my music class, and it makes me want to be musical again. Anyway, it's something I'm pondering.

Yeah, that's it.

It's just after 2am and I am actually on my way to bed, but this "Post an Entry" tab has been open for a few days just staring woefully at me. So. Quick update, then bed.

• I am back from NYC somewhat recharged and feeling pretty damn good about myself. Seeing all my closest friends really helped my psyche, I think. I feel better about (just about) everything. Pictures from my day at the Met will probably be forthcoming. Other than that: I saw 4 movies; saw lskull86, girasola, exrpan (and her bf briefly) and my ex (which was, oddly, good); saw Arcadia on Broadway which kind of made my life (I may or may not have cried); and saw family, including my newest cousin Minna who was born in February.

• I am technically back at school, but in reality I've had no classes this week (except for seminar) while I write my enabling paper. (I am only sure that one person on my flist is actually going to know what that means, but I am too tired to explain. Suffice to say that it's the second biggest paper I will write at SJC.) I am writing on Aquinas and law, and whoooboy am I intimidated. My question is: given that human law is fallible, does Aquinas believes we need it, and why or why not? And also sort of why isn't divine law (and the Ten Commandments) sufficient? I... do not at all have a handle on what I'm writing about. I haven't even really got a draft for this paper yet (due this coming Monday at noon) because I am so, "Whut," about it. Aquinas is hard.

• Instead of writing today, I baked chocolate chip cookies and meringues. I thought about what I wanted to write, which doesn't count but usually helps.

• I've decided that, while eating less now that I am in Santa Fe—I gained at least 5 pounds while I was in NYC, I swear, I didn't stop eating the whole time, except for the day I spent at the Met maybe—is going to help a little with getting those extra pounds off, I need to start my exercises up again. Because I am out of shape and starting to add to my already existing body issues. (Which I don't need. I was fine with the few body issues I had. Definitely don't need more.) So, before climbing into bed just now, I laid out my yoga mat (a spare blanket) and did some stretching for flexibility, some yoga for stamina, and some push-ups and sit-ups for strength and toning. It's my own little mix of pilates, yoga, ballet stretches and internet-researched regular stuff for my own health. I was out of shape enough that I did only was able to do half the number of push-ups and sit-ups I was doing at the end of freshman year and I couldn't get my head to my knees like I used to be able to. Ugh. This is going to change. Might even start using the school gym again.

• I... have mostly abandoned all my fic projects in favor of an original thing that girasola and I have revived. (Well, I did the reviving and then I dragged her back into it because it is an awesome project.) It feels good to think about it again, I definitely missed it. Also, I am vaguely thinking about a Faerie thing. For which I am doing both research and meta-research (as Mira termed it, since it involves reading other people's Faerie books to see what they did). It's not really more than a vague thing in my head, but it had potential for awesomeness.

• Ok, actually, fic projects are not totally abandoned, since I figured out how I want my Prince Caspian AU to work. I think it's technically a Dawn Treader AU as I am ganking the plot from that movie instead of trying to figure something out for myself. (What? It's already there and useful.) I have a few scenes written up, but I'm not sure I'll be able to finish it for au_bigbang. :/ Most other fic projects have been put on hold in favor of this one and the original stuff. Thank the gods that my Dawn Treader DVD won't be here until after I finish my paper. (Even if I do have a DLed copy...) I've already watched Prince Caspian twice for reasearch. (Hah!)

Aaand that's it for me. Sleep meds are starting to kick in, and maybe they'll actually keep me asleep tonight, though I'm not betting on it. I am getting in bed for a sleep.

P.S. This icon makes me happy because it vaguely reminds me of The Thing I'm working on with Mira. :)

• LJ, you suck. No really, you really suck.

• Bit the bullet and signed up for au_bigbang with my Prince Caspian fic, the plot of which I fleshed out a little during my last class today (instead of paying as much attention as I should have been, but we weren't going over anything new, so). About four sign-ups above me was someone else with what I suspect is a similar idea, but a different premise for it. Which is both exciting and annoying. On the other hand, it means if I have to drop that at least there will be one Narnia fic? Oh! And! There are also already two Hawaii Five-0 sign ups, which is kind of awesome.


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• The only other fic I've worked on since last time I posted is my Kirk/Spock, which is sitting pretty at 1000 words of intro. (/facepalm) I'm actually getting to the plot now, and I suspect this is a much larger project than I originally anticipate. (Ain't that just the way of it.)

• I don't have school tomorrow! Why? Because every once in a while the faculty decides that they want to have a seminar with each other instead of their annoying students, and so they do. (Actually, it's a neat idea. Kudos to them.) But, YAY I GET A DAY OFF IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WEEK!

• This weekend is full of parties. Which is nothing short of awesome. Friday is a Mad Men themed party, complete with cocktails. It's a fundraiser for the Big End of the Year party that my class will be hosting, so hopefully we'll get lots of people there, with girls in classy dresses and guys in suits and ties. Then Saturday is a Disney themed party! I am super excited about this. A friend and I are considering going as the Red Queen (me) and the White Queen (her) from Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland. With some creative interpretations of their costumes. (Which is to say, me in a red dress and her in a white dress and cheap crowns if we can find them.) Otherwise I am going to find a top hat somewhere and go as the Mad Hatter. Either way, I think it will be awesome.

• Yeah, that's all I got.

• Current tally of fics I am actively working on:
1) Prince Caspian AU (currently 200 words)
2) Enchanted romance/smut (currently 500 words)
3) Hawaii Five-0 "Mary McGarrett is a BAMF" (currently 700 words)
4) Star Trek XI Kirk/Spock smut (currently 500 words)
5) HP Founders-fic, Before They Were Legends (currently 700 words, none of which have been posted)
6) Covert Affairs Joan/Arthur romance/smut (currently 400 words)
7) Merlin Arthur/Merlin (with actual plot, zomg) (currently 100 words)

• Current tally of RP things I'm (not quite as actively) working on:
1) eraofhogwarts
2) Letter thing with dragon_gypsy
3) Vampire/Demon thing with dragon_gypsy
4) Abban/Dmitri thing with dragon_gypsy

• Current tally of papers I need to write by the end of the week:
1) Math paper (due tomorrow)
2) Language paper (due Friday)

• Current tally of TV shows I am watching to avoid writing of papers, fics or RPs:
1) Eureka (which I am out of and am trying to download)
2) Angel (started at S1 :D)
3) Hawaii Five-0 (which I am caught up on and so much from my Tumblr now makes sense)

• Current tally of movies I watched/am watching/will watch to avoid writing of papers, fic or RPs:
1) Burlesque
2) King Arthur (even though it stands there and laughs at the myths/legends like a bully on a playground)
3) Blade: Trinity (because Parker Posey and Ryan Reynolds are hot)
4) Black Swan (because I need to watch it before the Oscars this Sunday)

• I bought a DKNY watch today to replace my broken one. It has removable links in the band, but: if I make it tight enough that it doesn't move I have to struggle with the clasp for five minutes every time I need to take it off because it's also tight enough that it doesn't give me a lot of space to work with or I can make it so loose that it flops around. This is the difference of one single link. :/ I think I will also try to get a new battery for my HP watch. Because I loff it and I've never worn it.

• I was feeling a little blue, so I painted my nails blue. I'm feeling a little better about life now. :)

• I trimmed my bangs the other day and I cut them a few millimeters too short. Oh well, at least they'll grow out quick.

• My life, guys. My life.

• Had my last real class today. Still have one last seminar Thursday night, but that doesn't count as a class. Had my don rag and it went well: my tutors all said good things about me. Seminar and Language tutors said that I was a leader in their classes. :">

• I'm going to be staying here in Santa Fe this break because we can't really afford vacations for me right now. And same with the car. I might see about practicing on my mom's car more over break and maybe I'll be able to get my license with that and use it when she's in NYC. That's kind of the most practical option, no matter how much I don't want to drive a car with a stick shift. Still, being able to go dancing and go to parties and got to movies when I want and go meet friends when I want would be nice. So maybe this is a thing I should do.

• Even though it wasn't on the list, I think I've decided which netbook I want: the Dell Inspiron Mini. (Maybe there are multiple models of this? I dunno. But that's the basic one.) I know Dell has a pretty good customer service (because I know someone who had a Dell and frequently busted it up) which is a definite upside. Also it seems to be a pretty good product, on the higher end of the cheap netbooks, but still reasonably priced. So. Hopefully this is something it's reasonable to ask for for my birthday.

• Speaking of which, I will be 22 in a week. Not a big deal, really. It's kind of a weird age to be. Nothing special happens. Nothing special will happen for a long time, unless you count 25. I so frequently don't feel like an adult because I am surrounded by people so much younger—and in my opinion—so much more immature than me. I frequently feel like I am being dragged down to their level of maturity, too. Which annoys me. I've sort of been distancing myself from most of the people at my school lately, partially because I want to focus on doing my work and partially because being around some of these people is depressing and makes me uncomfortable.

• Speaking of birthdays (and thus holidays, sort of): my wishlist is here if you want to get me something. Please feel free to leave a link to yours and I will see if there's something I can give you!

• This sort of means that I haven't been making friends, though. Well, I made some. And about half the people that I am actually good friends with are leaving and not coming back next semester. That makes this all sort of hard, too.

• Wow. Did not mean for this to be depressing. It started on such a good note!

• I've decided that it might be time to read The Lord of the Rings trilogy. And possibly The Chronicles of Narnia books. (Unfortunately, my copies of both are still in NJ with my exboyfriend's family because they were missed when my stuff was shipped back to me. Hopefully I will get these back, though. Particularly because my copy of LotR is a 50th Anniversary Edition and my omnibus of the CoN is autographed by most of the cast of second movie. :>)

• Over this break I also want to: start knitting a sweater, start sewing a quilt, bake lots using my new mixer, translate some part of the Christian Scriptures from Greek to English for fun, writing one fic a week, and probably butt-tons of RPing. We'll see how I manage all this. (Possibly also I will be rereading some of my favorite Nora Roberts trilogies.)

• This is your last chance to sign up for a holiday card. I will be sending these out probably on the 17th. So if you want a card, leave your address there so I can send you one!

• I watched movies this weekend, and pretty much did nothing else. I am a doof like that. I actually had things that I needed to do for school, and now I'll be rushing to finish them and get them in before Thanksgiving break. Oof.

• On the other hand, The Sorcerer's Apprentice was actually fun. I wish someone had told the director that it looks like Nick Cage hasn't showered in centuries in the movie, but eh. He wasn't the attraction of the movie, so whatevs. Over all, it was a fun movie.

• I also watched Legion finally. Which, holy crap, was actually ok. It would have been great if all the really awesome parts hadn't been totally swallowed up by all the killing of crazy scary possessed people. D: Still, Paul Bettany as angel Michael was amazing, and there are some seriously slashy bits in that movie. Michael/Jeep and Michael/Gabriel. Totally. I just wish I didn't have to hide through all the parts with possessed people in order to get to the awesome parts. (Also, it was weird because there were a few lines at the end where my downloaded copy of the movie suddenly changed to Russian. So I have NO IDEA what was being said then.)

• My dad and I are making as small a Thanksgiving dinner as we can manage. Which will probably still be a little bigger than just the two of us can eat in one sitting, but still. It will be yummy. It will be turkey, stuffing, green bean casserole (Campbell's style, because I love it), some sort of sweet potato thing for my dad, cranberry sauce, and a mini apple pie and a mini pumpkin pie for dessert. I'm still deciding if I want to get an acorn squash or not. Will decide by tomorrow when we go grocery shopping for the dinner fixin's.

• Went to the dentist today for the last time! Yeah, no, not really. For the last time in the next six months, though. Still have to make an orthodontist appointment, but at least there will be no more drilling or scraping at my teeth for a little while. WHOO.

• Aaaaand, seminar reading time. SIGH.

• Fact 1: I wear an analog watch all the time. Fact 2: I cannot actually tell time on it. I can tell "10 minutes from now" because 10 minutes is two ticks. I can tell 1/4, 1/2, 3/4. Other than that, asking me for the time is probably just a waste of yours, because I will have to count it out. Now, let me tell you a true thing: I've been wearing my watch all day, knowing that I was supposed to set it back an hour at 2am this morning, and not noticing that it was wrong. Because the minute hand was always where it should be.

Congrats, self. You will never be a true adult.

And before you say it, digital clocks are worse. They mean I have to do math.

• I am currently 4 pages into a 8-12 page paper. It will probably be 10 pages when I am done with it. This paper is due tomorrow. I am not worried, really. I have so many things to say about this topic.

• NaNoWriMo starts tomorrow for me. I am looking forward to it. Not writing original fiction and working on my paper for the first week of NaNo has been hard, but pretty necessary. This paper is way more important at the moment. Alas. Still, even though I might not win this year, I will get as far as I can. That is my only goal.

• I am eating a burned quesadilla for a snack. Nomnomnom. It would be better if it wasn't burned, but eh. Dinner is in an hour or so anyway, so whatevs.

• I made a Tumblr. I'm not using it so much yet, because my internet won't load it—thank you internet for making sure I stay mostly focused on my paper—but you can find it here.

• Paperpaperpaperpaperpaper.

• School continues. I'm chugging along with it. I didn't have school Friday, and I don't have class on today—except for seminar at 7:30pm. Long weekend FTW! Sorely needed. I have papers that I ought to be working on now. D: Yipe.

• I went to the dentist this morning. Turns out I have less problems with my teeth than I thought. Sort of. Two instances of decay (not necessarily cavities, I guess) that are set to be filled a week from tomorrow. Dentist was incredibly surprised that my bottom right wisdom tooth wasn't giving me problems, as the x-rays showed that it is impacted. But it's never bothered me. My top ones are fully in and doing fine where there are. So. He said that my wisdom teeth probably don't need to be removed right now—if at all—it really just sort of depends on what I want to do. I've opted to leave them in there for now. Apparently I have an issue with how my jaw sets, and that it could potentially prove to be a problem later in my life, but it's totally up to me to do anything about it or not. (I don't yet know what his options for "fixing" my jaw are, but I suspect they will make me go, "LEAVE ME ALONE, I WILL TAKE MY CHANCES." We'll see.) So yeah. Dentist achieved. Problems are being fixed.

• I've started playing in a LJ RPG. Laugh with me now. I'm already applying for one more character, and then I am stopping. Two characters and school is enough for me right now. Still, yay RPing again!

• Uh. I have to go finish reading Tacitus now. Bye.