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cerulean_sky• For the first time in four years, I'm living "at home" with my parents. (Just a small clarification, for me home always seems to be where my laptop is.) It's weird. After I went to college the first time, my father emptied out my room and used it for his office. But since my parents' separation (about which I will not be answering any questions or talking about at all) my room has been mine again. And since I refuse to live on campus and pay for shitty food that will make me ill, I am living at home. And making my room mine again. I finally took my father's books out today. There were 15 boxes of them. My journals are on a real shelf again, and not in a box. I put my "Keep Calm and Carry On" poster up over my bed. Tomorrow my mother and I are going to look for a desk, and some curtains to put in front of the shelf I've put my clothes on. I feel sort of like a kid who just got her first room to herself—even though I never had siblings. It's weird. But fun.
• Because I was putting things onto newly cleared shelves and unpacking boxes that I've had in my room ALL SUMMER, I didn't actually get anything done today that I had planned on. Including seminar reading. I definitely need to do some of that before I go to sleep tonight since I only got half of it done yesterday and the reading for tomorrow is the entirety of Exodus. Then for Thursday I will be reading the entirety of Leviticus. It's like they don't know that some people don't read as fast as I do.
• I might have gotten a certain tricksy aspect of my life under control. (Also, my computer knows that "tricksy" is a word. Awesome.) I feel pretty comfortable about it, even though I know it's going to make my super uncomfortable all the time. But as long as I don't do anything stupid—which is the reason I've come to this conclusion really, as I think it will help protect me from doing anything stupid—I will be less uncomfortable in the long run. I hope. (Whoo, cryptic post is cryptic.)
• I've started taking diphenhydramine hydrochloride (tl;dr = Bendryl) to help me sleep. It's kind of awesome. It doesn't make me drowsy at all, but once I fall asleep, it keeps me asleep. I started taking it right about the same time I started school—so that I would be rested for classes—but before that I was having trouble sleeping through the night. I'd wake up every couple of hours and then drift off again, but I would never get enough sleep to be rested. Now, I wake up bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and ready for the day. It's nice. Next time I have a break, I'll go off it and see if I can sleep again, but since it's non-addictive (except in the sense that I don't really want to stop taking it in case I don't sleep well when I don't) I don't feel too bad about taking it to help. Sleep is awesome.
• I'm going to start thinking about and plotting my NaNoWriMo pretty soon. Since I'd like to keep up with it even though I'll be in school, I need to prepare as much as I can before hand. And I need to not tell my parents I'm doing it. They want me to focus more on school this year than last—and I totally am—but I think I can do both with enough planning and preparation. If it starts looking like I can't do both, I will absolutely drop NaNoWriMo without any hesitation, and I feel pretty good that I know that and am prepared for it if I have to. Yeah, no idea what I'm going to write. (At the writing of this part of this entry, Fleetwood Mac's "Running Through The Garden" came on and it made me think about the story that I wrote based on it, and how bad it was, and how it might make a good novel, so there's something. We'll see.)
• Nyx is getting bigger and playing with everything—including my hair while I try to cuddle her!—and is just overall adorable. We're going to have to take her to the vet, something we knew we had to do after adopting her, but one of her eyes is kind of oozy, and I don't want Hank to catch an eye infection if that's what Nyx has. I've been cleaning her eye out periodically throughout the day and kind of keeping watch, and yeah, it's definitely a vet issue. Poor kitten. Vet will probably be a whole new traumatic event, and she was just getting bolder and friendly. After going to the vet, she'll probably not let us touch her for a few days. (Which she will just have to get over if she has to have drops put into her eyes for a little while. Poor kitten!)
• Long post is long!
• I'm all caught up on Covert Affairs, White Collar, and Burn Notice. (What? USA's shows are awesome, ok? I haven't finished watching the first season of Royal Pains or I'd be all caught up on that too.) I have to download the last few eps of The Pillars of the Earth and catch up on that. I need me some medieval England.
• I helped teach blues dance last week, and then did a private lesson during the free dance, and totally got told that I'm an awesome teacher. If I didn't get horrible stage fright, I would totally do more dance teaching. I kind of have no idea who's going to be helping out the real teacher when he gets back into town, but... I kind of hope it's me. I could use some practice if it gets left to me to teach next year. (WHO KNOWS.) Still, I'm looking forward to another year of awesome blues dancing.
• And once I get a car I will be able to go to all the events I want! Car is totally in the works. If calling strangers wasn't one of the things that scares me the most, I would have called some of them today. But... yeah. Phones are bad enough, add in strangers, and possibly leaving strangers a message... yeah, this is me shaking in my proverbial boots. Plus, I have no idea what to ask about when I call someone about the car they're selling on Craigslist. My dad wants to me to call them, and if we just ignore the fact that that would scare me witless, I'm not going to know if the problem with their car is minor or major. My dad's like, call them and ask them the questions, to which I just sort of go, "About what? The fuck do I know about this?" Anyway, there's this cute little Saturn that I like, which doesn't have power windows (or, I suspect, locks) which makes me crack up a little. But as long as the windows roll up and down and the heat and the AC work, I'm ok with that. There are a bunch of other cars that I have my eye on, but this little Saturn is adorable. (And, since that's totally how I judge cars, my dad should know better than to make me try and evaluate the cars!)
• And... I think it's time for me to finish clearing off my bed and then get into it with my Torah. I need to read at least 70 pages before I go to sleep tonight.
• P.S. MY ICON TOTALLY MAKES MY NIGHT.
• Because I was putting things onto newly cleared shelves and unpacking boxes that I've had in my room ALL SUMMER, I didn't actually get anything done today that I had planned on. Including seminar reading. I definitely need to do some of that before I go to sleep tonight since I only got half of it done yesterday and the reading for tomorrow is the entirety of Exodus. Then for Thursday I will be reading the entirety of Leviticus. It's like they don't know that some people don't read as fast as I do.
• I might have gotten a certain tricksy aspect of my life under control. (Also, my computer knows that "tricksy" is a word. Awesome.) I feel pretty comfortable about it, even though I know it's going to make my super uncomfortable all the time. But as long as I don't do anything stupid—which is the reason I've come to this conclusion really, as I think it will help protect me from doing anything stupid—I will be less uncomfortable in the long run. I hope. (Whoo, cryptic post is cryptic.)
• I've started taking diphenhydramine hydrochloride (tl;dr = Bendryl) to help me sleep. It's kind of awesome. It doesn't make me drowsy at all, but once I fall asleep, it keeps me asleep. I started taking it right about the same time I started school—so that I would be rested for classes—but before that I was having trouble sleeping through the night. I'd wake up every couple of hours and then drift off again, but I would never get enough sleep to be rested. Now, I wake up bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and ready for the day. It's nice. Next time I have a break, I'll go off it and see if I can sleep again, but since it's non-addictive (except in the sense that I don't really want to stop taking it in case I don't sleep well when I don't) I don't feel too bad about taking it to help. Sleep is awesome.
• I'm going to start thinking about and plotting my NaNoWriMo pretty soon. Since I'd like to keep up with it even though I'll be in school, I need to prepare as much as I can before hand. And I need to not tell my parents I'm doing it. They want me to focus more on school this year than last—and I totally am—but I think I can do both with enough planning and preparation. If it starts looking like I can't do both, I will absolutely drop NaNoWriMo without any hesitation, and I feel pretty good that I know that and am prepared for it if I have to. Yeah, no idea what I'm going to write. (At the writing of this part of this entry, Fleetwood Mac's "Running Through The Garden" came on and it made me think about the story that I wrote based on it, and how bad it was, and how it might make a good novel, so there's something. We'll see.)
• Nyx is getting bigger and playing with everything—including my hair while I try to cuddle her!—and is just overall adorable. We're going to have to take her to the vet, something we knew we had to do after adopting her, but one of her eyes is kind of oozy, and I don't want Hank to catch an eye infection if that's what Nyx has. I've been cleaning her eye out periodically throughout the day and kind of keeping watch, and yeah, it's definitely a vet issue. Poor kitten. Vet will probably be a whole new traumatic event, and she was just getting bolder and friendly. After going to the vet, she'll probably not let us touch her for a few days. (Which she will just have to get over if she has to have drops put into her eyes for a little while. Poor kitten!)
• Long post is long!
• I'm all caught up on Covert Affairs, White Collar, and Burn Notice. (What? USA's shows are awesome, ok? I haven't finished watching the first season of Royal Pains or I'd be all caught up on that too.) I have to download the last few eps of The Pillars of the Earth and catch up on that. I need me some medieval England.
• I helped teach blues dance last week, and then did a private lesson during the free dance, and totally got told that I'm an awesome teacher. If I didn't get horrible stage fright, I would totally do more dance teaching. I kind of have no idea who's going to be helping out the real teacher when he gets back into town, but... I kind of hope it's me. I could use some practice if it gets left to me to teach next year. (WHO KNOWS.) Still, I'm looking forward to another year of awesome blues dancing.
• And once I get a car I will be able to go to all the events I want! Car is totally in the works. If calling strangers wasn't one of the things that scares me the most, I would have called some of them today. But... yeah. Phones are bad enough, add in strangers, and possibly leaving strangers a message... yeah, this is me shaking in my proverbial boots. Plus, I have no idea what to ask about when I call someone about the car they're selling on Craigslist. My dad wants to me to call them, and if we just ignore the fact that that would scare me witless, I'm not going to know if the problem with their car is minor or major. My dad's like, call them and ask them the questions, to which I just sort of go, "About what? The fuck do I know about this?" Anyway, there's this cute little Saturn that I like, which doesn't have power windows (or, I suspect, locks) which makes me crack up a little. But as long as the windows roll up and down and the heat and the AC work, I'm ok with that. There are a bunch of other cars that I have my eye on, but this little Saturn is adorable. (And, since that's totally how I judge cars, my dad should know better than to make me try and evaluate the cars!)
• And... I think it's time for me to finish clearing off my bed and then get into it with my Torah. I need to read at least 70 pages before I go to sleep tonight.
• P.S. MY ICON TOTALLY MAKES MY NIGHT.
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on 2010-09-06 12:55 pm (UTC)I'm not sure if I will do NaNoWriMo this year. I'd like to, and the fact that I did it last year means I *can* do it, but I don't know. It all depends on the job situation, I guess.
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on 2010-09-07 05:33 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-09-07 01:53 am (UTC)A LOT MORE.
IN FACT, I ACCOMPLISHED ALMOST NOTHING.
EXCEPT BEING WEIRDLY DEPRESSED AND THEN SOCIAL. IN THAT ORDER.
I AM DULY IMPRESSED.
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on 2010-09-07 05:36 am (UTC)TODAY WAS ALSO PRETTY PRODUCTIVE, AND TOMORROW WILL BE TOO. I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN.
WE NEED TO WRITE OUR FIC. I NEED TO WRITE FIC IN GENERAL. I HAVE NO TIIIIIIME.
WE'LL FIGURE IT OUT.
LOOK I CAN DO CAPS TOO. :P
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on 2010-09-07 07:27 pm (UTC)YOU ARE BAMF LIKE THAT. I WILL TRY TO BE BAMF LIKE THAT, BUT TODAY DOES NOT LOOK GOOD, WHAT WITH THE WHITE COLLAR MID-SEASON FINALE. BLAST YOU WHITE COLLAAAAAAAAAAAR!
ALSO, YES, YES, WE DO. BUT WHEN? FRIDAY IS GOOD FOR ME. EMAIL IS GOOD FOR ME. WHAT WITH HAVING EMAIL ON MY PHONE AND ALL. EMAIL IS VERY GOOD FOR ME.
I WANT TO WRITE FIC WITH YOUUUUUUU BECAUSE IT WILL BE FIC IN BITS AND BOBS AND THUS STANDS A CHANCE OF EXISTING. SLOWLY. OVER TIME. OGOD LAW SCHOOL.
FIRST TWO WEEKS = EASING US IN.
NOW = ODEARGOD.
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on 2010-09-07 08:43 pm (UTC)I HAVEN'T YET PUT EMAIL ON MY PHONE, WHICH WAS KIND OF THE PHOLE POINT OF GETTING A BLACKBERRY. WHAT THE HELL, SELF. I'LL HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THAT.
BUT WE'LL TOTALLY FIGURE SOMETHING OUT. FRIDAY ISN"T GOOD FOR ME THOUGH. SATURDAY IS. I WILL BE ONLINE ALL DAY SATURDAY AT WORK. AND I CAN COME ONLINE WHEN I GET HOME FROM WORK TOO.
BITS AND BOBS. LOOOOOL. BUT YES. ALSO WITH PORN. WHICH IS WHAT YOUR FICS LACK. AND WITH PLOT. WHICH IS WHAT MY FICS LACK. WE WILL BE EPIC AND AWESOME AND WE WILL RULE THE FICVERSE.
YEAH, THE FIRST FEW WEEKS OF SCHOOL ARE LIKE, "LOOK, YOU CAN TOTALLY MANAGE." AND THEN AFTER THAT'S LIKE, "AHAHAHA, JK!"
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on 2010-09-08 02:13 am (UTC)I WORK 12-22 ON SATURDAY, WHICH LIKE DESTROYS THE WHOLE DAY UNTIL, YOU KNOW, THE WEE HOURS, BUT PERHAPS IN THOSE WEE HOURS WE CAN FIC. IT IS POSSIBLE. I CANNOT FIC AT WORK, AS THAT WOULD JUST BE ABSURD AND DIFFICULT. PLUS THE KIDS WOULD BE LIKE, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" AND THEN I WOULD HAVE TO BE LIKE, "UHHHHH INAPPROPRIATE STUFF." OOPS.
AHAHAHAHA OH SCHOOL. I NEED TO DO THAT NOW. I DON'T WANT TO. alskdjf;asjd;a WEDNESDAY IS MY DEATH DAY FOR CLASSES. IT'S SCARY AND BAD. YES.
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on 2010-09-08 03:30 am (UTC)MAN, YOU'RE WORK HOURS SUCK. AT LEAST I'M ONLY TIED UP UNTIL.... UH, 18? MILITARY TIME SUCKS. 6PM. SO THERE.
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST WRITE SOMETHING AND THEN PASS IT TO YOU AND YOU CAN WRITE WHENEVER YOU HAVE TIME. YES. OR SOMETHING. IT WILL WORK. I'LL SEE WHAT I CAN DO.
I HAVE NO HELL DAY. ALL MY DAYS ARE ACTUALLY REALLY CHILL AND AWESOME. I TOTALLY HAD TIME TO GO THE GYM ON CAMPUS AND WORK OUT TODAY. AND I'LL PROBABLY DO IT ON THURSDAY TOO. BECAUSE I AM A BAMF LIKE THAT. (AND ALSO I NEED TO LOSE A TEENSY BIT OF WEIGHT.)
THIS CAPSLOCK THING IS WEIRD. WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU STARTED?
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on 2010-09-08 04:56 am (UTC)MY WORK HOURS . . . MAKE ME MONEY. OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. FOR MY FUTURE KITTEN. YES. ALSO, MILITARY TIME IS AMAZING, NO HATING.
HELP WITH THE GOOGLE DOC FIRST SO WE AT LEAST KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING. LET'S MANGLE OUT A PLOT FIRST. OR AN OUTLINE. OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. I LIKE THE IDEA OF A ROUGH OUTLINE. LIKE, A REALLY, REALLY FUCKING ROUGH OUTLINE. BUT I THINK WE NEED TO DO THAT FIRST OVER IM. HMMM. I HAVE SOME CHILL TIME BETWEEN CLASSES TOMORROW? BETWEEN 11 and 1? POSSIBLY.
ALSO: I HATE YOUR LACK OF A HELL DAY. TOMORROW I AM GOING TO CRY IN A CORNER AT SOME POINT. YES. ACTUALLY, MY ENTIRE SECOND HALF OF THE WEEK JUST FUCKING SUCKS. YES. THE END. UGH. IT'S REALLY BACK-HEAVY, MY WEEK.
MAHAHAHAHA, I WILL TAKE YOU DOWN WITH ME ON MY SHIP OF YELLING REALLY LOUDLY OVER THE INTERNET. YEAH. IT WORKS.
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on 2010-09-08 06:32 pm (UTC)MONEY IS AWESOME, I ADMIT TO THAT. BUT WORKING THOSE HOURS AND LAW SCHOOL MAKES YOU A CRAZY LADY. ALL MY DAYS ARE REALLY CHILL AND I STILL CUT MY HOURS TO 11.5 A WEEK.
I DUN WANNA. YOUR GOOGLE DOC SCARES ME. I WILL WRITE MY PORN AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO STOP ME.
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on 2010-09-08 07:14 pm (UTC)FIRST OFF, I ONLY WORK 10 HOURS A WEEK. I MIGHT BE CRAZY, BUT I'M NOT SUICIDAL. THE END. ALSO, I LOVE MY JOB. ♥
SECOND, MY GOOGLE DOC IS AMAZING AND I LIKE STRUCTURE AND PLANNING. IT MAKES ME HAPPY IN MY SPECIAL PLACE. YOU KNOW YOU LOVE MEEEEEE.
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on 2010-09-08 10:05 pm (UTC)YOUR GOOGLE DOC IS SCARY AS SHIT. I REFUSE TO AD TO IT FOR FEAR OF MESSING SHIT UP. I WILL WRITE PRON AND YOU CAN FIT IT INTO YOUR BIG ASS SCARY PLOT. I ONLY LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO WRITE PORN FOR YOU. (WHICH IS A LOT, OBVS. I DON'T WRITE PRON FOR JUST ANYONE.)
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on 2010-09-08 11:59 pm (UTC)ALSO, MY GOOGLE DOC IS PRETTY AND ORGANIZED AND I EVEN GAVE YOU AN EDITING COLOR SO THAT YOU CANNOT POSSIBLY SCREW ANYTHING UP. I MEAN, SERIOUSLY, I HAVE ALL THIS SHIT IN ITS OWN FILE ELSEWHERE, AND THAT'S WHAT COLLABORATION ISSSSSSSSSS. AND YOUR PORN IS AMAZING BUT SO IS YOUR BRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN.
ALSO I HAVE THAT ICON THAT YOU JUST USED DID YOU STEAL IT FROM ME?
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on 2010-09-10 12:55 am (UTC)YOUR GOOGLE DOC IS TOO SACRED TO BE TOUCHED, AND THUS I REFUSE TO SULLY IT WITH MY PORN. STOP PROTESTING MY DESIRE TO WRITE YOU PORN. JEEZ.
HAH, SORTA. I LOOKED UP WHO YOU'D GOTTEN IT FROM CUZ I LIKED IT, AND THEN TOOK A BUNCHA ICONS FROM HER INCLUDING THAT ONE. BECAUSE IT IS PRETTY AND AWESOME.
BUT ALSO I HAVE THE BAMF MORGANA ONE, WHICH MEANS I WIN AT LIFE.
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on 2010-09-10 01:30 am (UTC)WELL.
WELL.
JUST FUCKING WELL.
THAT IS ALL.
ILU. ♥♥
(THIS ICON MAKES ME HAPPY.)
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on 2010-09-11 12:39 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-09-11 04:34 am (UTC)