In which Sky is cold.

[cerulean_sky]

I am in a mood.

I was perfectly fine earlier tonight. And then what set it off was me reading the comments my teacher made on my paper, telling me that the point I was trying to make wasn't supported by the text. And that my paper was too short. (I knew it was going to be a little short, but I have no idea how the school computers cut off a page and a half.)

I tried to read something, I'm trying to listen to music, but nothing is working.

It's like... something feels wrong. It's a very strong sense of dread. And at the same time, I want to cry.

But I have no idea what's causing it.

***

And now to lighten the mood, a meme.

-List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
-Don't say who they are, use people only once.
-Tag at least 3 other people who you want to do this.

1: There are two things I want most in life. The first is to be a writer, but getting away from you is a close second.
2: We'd be closer if you hadn't been so clingy and scary.
3: I wish we'd gotten closer.
4: There are times when I really wish you would grow up and/or act your age.
5: I wish we were as close as we used to be.
6: I'm sorry that we drifted apart and for whatever fault of that is mine.
7: I feel sorry for you because I know all your relationships are going to fail because of you. But there are times when I really, really want to punch you in the face.
8: I know you think I make your life difficult, but I don't think it's my fault that our relationship is so strained. It didn't used to be like that.
9: WHY THE FUCK DO YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ME?
10: I always liked you. I always will. But you'll never have a place for me in your heart.

Tagging:
1. airiviel
2. nardaviel
3. darsabre

That totally didn't lighten the mood at all. Whatever.

Comments

[elfypiratequeen.livejournal.com]

Wow. On the reverse side, reading those regardless of who they're directed at? Not healthy when you're in a guilty self-disliking kind of mood.

[http://users.livejournal.com/somethingelse__/]

I agree wholeheartedly.

yo heads up

[mental-tsunami.livejournal.com]

um this is for the person who sent Sky the two songs from Deep Shadows Brilliant Highlights by HIM. I need the rest of that album but i cant download music so please if u have it send it to me. I need IT PLEASE!!!. to contact me ask sky for my gmail.

Re: yo heads up

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

That would be ravenpirate. I'll ask her to DL the rest for me and then send them to you too.

[tcideneb.livejournal.com]

Just to clarify, I hate reading these.

Somehow I've managed to apply all of them to me at once.

-B.

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I did that too with my friends'. *sigh* Sorry!

[tcideneb.livejournal.com]

So... which of them is me... let's not dance around the issue, here.

-B.

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

I think it's funny that you assume one is.

[tcideneb.livejournal.com]

Actually, I assume four of them are about me. At least.

-B.

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

Nope. None of them are about you. You poor unloved thing.

[tcideneb.livejournal.com]

Phew. There's a relief.

Besides, none of them said "incalculably handsome."

-B.

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

Yeah, then you'd really know that none of them were about you.

[tcideneb.livejournal.com]

Your insult, while clear, does not make logical sense.

Word of the day from gmail was "doula", which I already knew as a traditional Indian midwife. Ah, my weird parents.

Why aren't you an AIM at all?

-B.

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

Pff, logical it may not be, but it serves my purpose.

Of all the words to teach you... Why not useful english ones?

Why do you bother reading my journal? I gotta ask. I mean... I do put useful information in my posts occasionally...

[tcideneb.livejournal.com]

If you mean to say I've missed your explanation, well, I've been out of it recently.

And I read your journal because I don't get many friends, and I hate seeing them go.

-B.

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

*sigh* I'm not on AIM because AIM isn't enabled on my computer since getting it back.

[mental-tsunami.livejournal.com]

four of these are def about me.

[cerulean-sky.livejournal.com]

Not even a little bit.

Besides, you're not allowed to use the same person more than once.

[lskull86.livejournal.com]

Yeah, being tired isnt good. I cant decide if none of them are about me (likely), or 3 of them are... :-P

[gules]

I don't even think any of these are about me (though of course now you'll tell me they are) but they make me think about the people I've known to whom I would want to say such things. And also, apparently, lose the comprehensibility if not technical correctness of my sentence structure. Both of which things are depressing.