This post will be about two things: Sleep and Sick.
I) I am incapable of sleeping. Ever. Which didn't use to be the case. In fact, for much of my life, I could reliably be in bed and passed out by a decent hour without any trouble at all. Now, however, there are four things preventing me from sleeping.
1a) Apparently I am an insomniac. I mean, that is what they call it when you can't fall asleep no matter how tired you are because your brain refuses to stop chattering at you, right?
1b) The only way I have found to combat the whole "brain chattering" thing, is listening to music to drown out the thoughts. The problem there is that I eventually learn to think
over the music, and thus have to turn it up louder. And louder. And louder. Until the point is moot and I am not sleeping because I have very loud music playing at me.
2)
RLS. There have been nights that I have been close to tears because my legs hurt too much and I have to constantly keep them moving in order to be at all comfortable. (The best way to describe RLS is that it's very uncomfortable. For me, it presents in my calves, shins and ankles. And honestly it feels a little like growing pains, only not as sharp but all the more painful because it is a constant dull ache.) It's like being unable to find a comfortable position, only is usually isn't the bed you're on that is stopping you. It's the skin you're in.
3) I can only sleep for about 5 hours before I start reversing the effects. That is to say, after about 5 hours, I start getting more tired instead of more refreshed. Now, sometime this isn't a problem. During school I function fairly well. But during the summer when I have no reason to get up in the morning? Not so much. (I feel like this also prevents me from taking sleep medication, because I simply can't devote 8-10 hours to sleep. Firstly, my body doesn't work like that and secondly, that takes time away from other things that I could be awake and doing.)
4) Left to my own devices, I am almost completely nocturnal. I will stay up until 7-9am, and
then I will crash, until 2-4pm, when I will get up and begin the cycle anew.
II) I crashed
really early last night (midnight) because I was feeling like a ton of brick hit me and then shit on me for good measure. (Pleasant image, that.) I was a bit feverish, so I took some Tylenol and piled on the blankets, and went to sleep. When I woke up again, I felt great. Sore throat gone, and it was all good! Then I realized that it was still dark in my apartment, and darker than just the windows make it. So I looked at the clock. 3am. I slept for three hours, and felt like I had gotten all the sleep I needed. So, I read for an hour, and then I started getting tired again, (and this is where the whole "can't sleep ever" thing comes in) and for the next.... hour, I laid on the couch staring at the clock. Then I got back in bed, still massively tired, but it wasn't until about... 6:30am when the sun was beginning to make an appearance, that I finally crashed again.
Then Mira got home. I don't remember what time, exactly, but that's why I got up. And both of us are sick.
Well, crap.
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