A slightly... morose... post

[cerulean_sky]

Am I as cut off as I feel? I feel so alone. So without anyone. I wonder if that is just me. Or is it reality? Has so much really happened? Has so much happened that I am not a part of becasue I am not around? Or am I just being irrational because I have no contact with those I left behind? Perhaps I am being... irrational (that word again...)... but who would know? Who is there to tell me that I am? Or that I'm not? No one. No one is here. I am all alone.

I still have that hollow, empty feeling. It has not gone away. To tell the truth, I do not expect it to. I expect it to stay there forever and eat away at my insides until the day I keel over dead and get eaten by wild dogs. Perhaps not. But I do not expect this feeling to leave, ever.

Today was my half birthday. In exactly six months I will be fifteen. It's funny because my parents always used to have to remind me that this day was coming, and I would forget, even on the day and I would wake up and my parents would remind me. Today was not that way. No indeed it wasn't. Today no one remembered. Perhaps I am just that easy to forget. Perhaps I am being irrational again. Who knows?

~Astarael, the Sorrowful

Comments

[wertwert.livejournal.com]

i think your parents have not forgot they may just think you are to old for half biirthdays or something