a rose named sky
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on 2005-07-22 01:50 am (UTC)a) Itll prolly hit you later. When My grandmother passed away I was wierd kinda calm for about a week. Then one day I said to my sister something like, "I'm going down to see nona", and suddenly realized she wasnt there. It hit me then.
Then again it may not, it may be that:
b)As you point out, the friend of your grandmothers had been ill for a long time, you had time to prepare for the blow, whether consiously or not.
c)You're not heartless, not unless you've changed more than I can possibly believe since I graduated. You distance yourself sometimes to avoid pain, (as you point out above, "Being 'heartless' and unfeeling is just a way not to feel any pain.") but by that act you prove you're not heartless. After all, there would be no need to distance yourself if you truly didnt feel pain (emotional). I would say more that you're emotionally cautious.
d) You look all over-happy and stuff in that second pic.
::is amused::
good pic though.