Maledicte

• Memberships to WorldCon 2011: Renovation will go up in price on Oct. 1. I haven't yet bought my membership, but I am totally planning on going. Particularly because Reno, Nevada is within driving distance on Santa Fe, NM. (I mean, sure, it's like 17-18 hours worth of driving, but it's totally doable.) It's a shame that I'll turn 22 this December, because the Young Adult memberships are like... $80 cheaper than regular memberships. Sigh. The price of getting older is, apparently, $80.

• I got my first paper back from my Greek tutor, and I am looking forward to expanding it into at least a 10 page paper for seminar later this year. He even pointed something out that will really help me out. So that's awesome. And, despite the fact that I pounded it out in like... an hour when I wrote it, his comments on it consist of questions that will only help me, and "Great start on some fine questions." Whoo!

• I have decided that I am definitely going to the "live in HD" showing of Das Rheingold at the theatre here on October 9th. Because it's too good to pass up. I'm only telling a few friends about it, because I a) don't want tickets to sell out—though, maybe I ought to get them in advance—and b) I don't want to go with people I don't want to share this with. I am sneaky.

• Mom is home, and will hopefully be home for a while. She's coming to Parents' Weekend here at school, and that should be interesting. Since my dad has met all my tutors and he was just at Homecoming here, he's not going to come. Which I am ok with. My mom will probably have fun. I am looking forward to sharing my readings with her so she knows what's going on.

• I'm trying to convince some people I know here that for Halloween they want to go as a group of Sandman's Endless. With me as Death (of course) and some other people as Desire, Delirium, Destiny, Destruction. I have no idea who I should ask to be Dream, and I don't think anyone will want to be Despair, hah. I'm pretty set on being Death this year, even if I don't get a group to do a theme.

• Speaking of costumes, I'm kind of dressed like 21 year old Wednesday Adams today. Which is kind of hilarious. It makes me think that next year for Halloween I ought to go as Slutty Teenage Wednesday Adams. Because that would be awesome and hilarious.

• And now I have to go back to translating Greek.

• My left bottom wisdom tooth is moving around again. About two years ago, it broke through the gum and I took pain killers for a few days, but that was it. Now... I've been taking pain killers for... almost a week. OW. I just don't have time in my life right now to go to the dentist, be put under and have it removed, and then spend however long doped up on the opiates they'll give me to get rid of the pain. I have school. On the other hand, I also don't want to get an infection or anything, and it hurts like a bitch. I know I'm going to have to get them removed sooner rather than later.

• That visit to the dentist will be the first time I've gone in... probably like 8 years. I just know they're going to find other things in my mouth that they want to fix. And while I'm all for having good teeth, the dentist scares me and so do needles, and it's expensive.

• AUGH OH GOD MY MOUTH.

• In other, less painful news: Nyx learned how to use the cat door. So she's been wandering around outside for the last few days. She always comes back in at night—I'm not sure she actually goes outside at all once it gets dark, so that's a plus—and my mom and I figure that the earlier she learns about the outdoors, the better prepared she'll be than when we would have kept her inside for the first several months. My little bitty kitten is growing up!

• I've decided I'm not going to dance tonight, and since I went last night, I feel somewhat justified in this. Instead I am going to come home early and do lots of homework and be very prepared for all my classes and get a good night's sleep. I feel all mature, having made this decision. LOL with me now.

• Faust Party (aka S&C) is this weekend, and I am actually looking forward to it. Mostly I am looking forward to dancing and hanging out with friends. And hopefully not doing anything stupid. And since I'm not a freshman, I feel somewhat justified in my decision—what is it with me and needing justification for my decisions lately?—not to wear tons of white. The upperclassmen can suck it. I'm older than mostly all of them anyway. (Gotta love how like... one person on my flist has any idea what I'm talking about here.)

• For the first time in four years, I'm living "at home" with my parents. (Just a small clarification, for me home always seems to be where my laptop is.) It's weird. After I went to college the first time, my father emptied out my room and used it for his office. But since my parents' separation (about which I will not be answering any questions or talking about at all) my room has been mine again. And since I refuse to live on campus and pay for shitty food that will make me ill, I am living at home. And making my room mine again. I finally took my father's books out today. There were 15 boxes of them. My journals are on a real shelf again, and not in a box. I put my "Keep Calm and Carry On" poster up over my bed. Tomorrow my mother and I are going to look for a desk, and some curtains to put in front of the shelf I've put my clothes on. I feel sort of like a kid who just got her first room to herself—even though I never had siblings. It's weird. But fun.

• Because I was putting things onto newly cleared shelves and unpacking boxes that I've had in my room ALL SUMMER, I didn't actually get anything done today that I had planned on. Including seminar reading. I definitely need to do some of that before I go to sleep tonight since I only got half of it done yesterday and the reading for tomorrow is the entirety of Exodus. Then for Thursday I will be reading the entirety of Leviticus. It's like they don't know that some people don't read as fast as I do.

• I might have gotten a certain tricksy aspect of my life under control. (Also, my computer knows that "tricksy" is a word. Awesome.) I feel pretty comfortable about it, even though I know it's going to make my super uncomfortable all the time. But as long as I don't do anything stupid—which is the reason I've come to this conclusion really, as I think it will help protect me from doing anything stupid—I will be less uncomfortable in the long run. I hope. (Whoo, cryptic post is cryptic.)

• I've started taking diphenhydramine hydrochloride (tl;dr = Bendryl) to help me sleep. It's kind of awesome. It doesn't make me drowsy at all, but once I fall asleep, it keeps me asleep. I started taking it right about the same time I started school—so that I would be rested for classes—but before that I was having trouble sleeping through the night. I'd wake up every couple of hours and then drift off again, but I would never get enough sleep to be rested. Now, I wake up bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and ready for the day. It's nice. Next time I have a break, I'll go off it and see if I can sleep again, but since it's non-addictive (except in the sense that I don't really want to stop taking it in case I don't sleep well when I don't) I don't feel too bad about taking it to help. Sleep is awesome.

• I'm going to start thinking about and plotting my NaNoWriMo pretty soon. Since I'd like to keep up with it even though I'll be in school, I need to prepare as much as I can before hand. And I need to not tell my parents I'm doing it. They want me to focus more on school this year than last—and I totally am—but I think I can do both with enough planning and preparation. If it starts looking like I can't do both, I will absolutely drop NaNoWriMo without any hesitation, and I feel pretty good that I know that and am prepared for it if I have to. Yeah, no idea what I'm going to write. (At the writing of this part of this entry, Fleetwood Mac's "Running Through The Garden" came on and it made me think about the story that I wrote based on it, and how bad it was, and how it might make a good novel, so there's something. We'll see.)

• Nyx is getting bigger and playing with everything—including my hair while I try to cuddle her!—and is just overall adorable. We're going to have to take her to the vet, something we knew we had to do after adopting her, but one of her eyes is kind of oozy, and I don't want Hank to catch an eye infection if that's what Nyx has. I've been cleaning her eye out periodically throughout the day and kind of keeping watch, and yeah, it's definitely a vet issue. Poor kitten. Vet will probably be a whole new traumatic event, and she was just getting bolder and friendly. After going to the vet, she'll probably not let us touch her for a few days. (Which she will just have to get over if she has to have drops put into her eyes for a little while. Poor kitten!)

• Long post is long!

• I'm all caught up on Covert Affairs, White Collar, and Burn Notice. (What? USA's shows are awesome, ok? I haven't finished watching the first season of Royal Pains or I'd be all caught up on that too.) I have to download the last few eps of The Pillars of the Earth and catch up on that. I need me some medieval England.

• I helped teach blues dance last week, and then did a private lesson during the free dance, and totally got told that I'm an awesome teacher. If I didn't get horrible stage fright, I would totally do more dance teaching. I kind of have no idea who's going to be helping out the real teacher when he gets back into town, but... I kind of hope it's me. I could use some practice if it gets left to me to teach next year. (WHO KNOWS.) Still, I'm looking forward to another year of awesome blues dancing.

• And once I get a car I will be able to go to all the events I want! Car is totally in the works. If calling strangers wasn't one of the things that scares me the most, I would have called some of them today. But... yeah. Phones are bad enough, add in strangers, and possibly leaving strangers a message... yeah, this is me shaking in my proverbial boots. Plus, I have no idea what to ask about when I call someone about the car they're selling on Craigslist. My dad wants to me to call them, and if we just ignore the fact that that would scare me witless, I'm not going to know if the problem with their car is minor or major. My dad's like, call them and ask them the questions, to which I just sort of go, "About what? The fuck do I know about this?" Anyway, there's this cute little Saturn that I like, which doesn't have power windows (or, I suspect, locks) which makes me crack up a little. But as long as the windows roll up and down and the heat and the AC work, I'm ok with that. There are a bunch of other cars that I have my eye on, but this little Saturn is adorable. (And, since that's totally how I judge cars, my dad should know better than to make me try and evaluate the cars!)

• And... I think it's time for me to finish clearing off my bed and then get into it with my Torah. I need to read at least 70 pages before I go to sleep tonight.

• P.S. MY ICON TOTALLY MAKES MY NIGHT.

• This morning started off with such potential, and then was utterly ruined by the people from Felines and Friends, the adoption agency for the kitten than I wanted. Apparently, they have an indoor only adoption policy. I say apparently because not only is it not on any of their literature or their website, but their adoption application form asks whether the cat will be indoor, outdoor or both. I feel like they tricked me. They got my hopes up and wasted my time. I am crushed and annoyed.

• My first class is tonight. The assigned reading was the first 11 chapters of Genesis—which, yes, I've read the entirety of the book of Genesis and large portion of the rest of the five books, but I am looking forward to a good discussion. And I'm looking forward to seeing people I haven't seen in months. Fun times.

• Yeah, ok, this thing with the kitten has just ruined my morning. I guess since we're in the "adopting a kitten/cat" mind frame we'll keep looking. And we've always had really good luck with the animal shelter here in Santa Fe, and we'll check Craigslist too. I just feel like that kitten was special.

• I had a dream last night that involved me being royal, awesome dresses and robes, and a really hot man. This morning I had a dream that I was Kat Stratford from 10 Things I Hate About You and I was dancing tango with Patrick Verona (Heath Ledger) in a parking lot.

• Mom just called—we're going to go over to the animal shelter tomorrow on my lunch break. This is slightly cheering.

• I can't even think of anything more to say.

• I went out with my mom today to meet the cat that we're fostering for the next year (and meet the owner too, of course). Such a sweet cat. My mom texted me a picture while I was at work of Hank the Cat already sprawled out asleep on my bed. Awww! I will cuddle with him when I get home from dance.

• While at the kennel to meet the cat, this one kitten leapt up onto my shoulder. ...so we're adopting that kitten too.

• Why did I ever think I could live life without cats?

• One of my coworkers might sell me her car. Which is a handy solution to an ongoing problem. I am crossing my fingers that she decides she wants to get a new car.

• Opera last night was good except for the spastic costume choices. The Queen of the Night and her ladies were in Elizabethan, the prince was medieval Italian, Sarastro and his court were 1400's French with the sole exception of his Nazi guards, the princess was 1930s American and Papageno was modern complete with Converse and a baseball cap. Wtf.

• I totally had one more thing to say and I can't remember what it was.

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• I has a Blackberry! I... can't figure out how to change the wall paper on it. But! I have my preferred ringtone—Up Is Down from the PotC: At World's End soundtrack—and I have the Facebook app, and I have the Twitter app. I... mostly have no idea what I'm doing. Cheers!

• I have a new hair cut. Guys. It's adorable. Seriously. It's possible that I have never looked cuter in my entire life. Pictures are surely forthcoming—because, you know, the ongoing saga of Sky's hair is something to keep track of here. (Also, said hair cut was $7 because it was technically considered a trim.)

• I also have a beautiful new pair of earrings and a blue opal ring, because it's Indian Market Weekend here in Santa Fe, NM and since it's the last day, most things were really cheap. But they are totally stunning.

• Hah. And then I took a new picture for Facebook, so you all get to see it too. ( New hair cut! )

• I have 300 or so words on my Covert Affairs fic. I'll probably work on that more tonight and tomorrow. I am enjoying it, though. :>

• It's exactly a week until my first class, and I am thinking up new projects to attempt to put my time into. What the hell am I thinking? (Besides that I could make a few bucks, possibly.) Definitely need to get some supplies this weekend and see if any of this is manageable. At all.

• Mother returns tomorrow night. And will be here when I start school. And for Parent's Weekend. \o/

• Also this weekend: Blackberry, hair cut, new clothes. I am looking forward to all of this as it signals a sort of... shift in my "image". To something I might actually like more. (You know, as opposed to changing one's image purposefully to something one likes less.) So that will probably be neat.

• I need socks.

• ( Some pictures from my garden this week. )

• I am fretting a little bit about fantasybigbang. Just a little bit. Artist and mixers are sort of slowly trickling in, but we still have about 1/4 artist/mixers as we do authors. Still, there's more than a month to fix this, so I am getting on it right now. If you guys know any artists who might be interested, poke them. :>

• I keep forgetting to take my jeans to the seamstress. I'd like to be able to wear my new jeans. Yeah, I know. I haven't been able to yet. It's ridiculous.

• I had a fight with my dad on the way to work that left me seething and almost crying with anger and frustration. I've only been at work for 34 minutes, and I'm only just starting to calm down. I love my father dearly, but sometimes I cannot stand him.

• I can't even begin to tell you how much talking on the phone scares me. Particularly with strangers—administration at schools, stores you just want to know if they carry something, clients that my boss needs me to reschedule appointments with. Leaving messages is kind of worse, because I can never figure out how to end the message. I just stutter and say, "Um" a lot, and then finally I manage a, "Thanks, bye!" It's right up there with "going some place alone" on the list of neurotic things that scare me.

• I need to organize my tags. Seriously.

• I've got a feeling that tonight—and no, we're not quoting that song—is going to be weird. I don't know. And, damnit, I forgot to get cash. Damn. I'll have to find an ATM between getting off work and going dancing.

Later...

• Ok, I've cooled off from my argument with my dad, and I feel bad about getting out of the car and shutting the door while he was saying something to me. D: He's annoying, yes. But I don't have to let it get to me. Ugh.

• I haven't eaten yet today. I ought to do that before drinks tonight.

• I downloaded like... 8 Inception fanmixes today. And I totally forgot to comment on the posts, or make a note of who made which ones. I feel bad about this, but I am greatly cheered by the onslaught of new music that I now have.

• My dad and I got a pound of See's chocolates today. If I could eat my half of the box all at once, I totally would. Instead, I've only eaten my piece of fudge and my chocolate walnut cluster. So good.

• With the onset of chocolate in this house, I will definitely not forget to exercise before bed tonight. I ought to receive a metal for my will power at last night's dinner and tonight's: I only ate two pieces of pizza last night, and only three tonight. (Instead of my normal 1/2 to 3/4 of the whole pizza.)

• I have acquired some 10 Things I Hate About You icons, which is a seriously awesome movie, and I might have to watch it before I go to sleep. (For the record, I totally used Hulu to watch the entire only season of the 10 Things I Hate About You TV show that was on ABC, which was truly awful, but did have the hot grandson of Gregory Peck playing Patrick Verona. ONLY REASON I WATCHED IT, RIGHT THERE.) I am heaving a romantic sigh. I would love to find my Patrick Verona/Heath Ledger. (I might totally settle for Ethan Peck.)

• There are mice in my kitchen and a raccoon in my mom's office—sometimes; it likes to go in there and see if there's food, which there's not and hasn't been for a while—a bear that sometimes comes into my front yard—right outside my front door!—and possibly a baby coyote that I saw once. (Hah, that's totally a real sentence. The emdashes make it legit.) This and the bugs are the reason it freaks me out to live in the middle of nowhere.

• Night!

• I downloaded the first two parts of the BBC miniseries The Virgin Queen which has Tom Hardy (Mr. Eames from Inception) in it as Robert Dudley. He is young and adorable and I am enjoying him in the role of my favorite courtier. His accent makes me grin like an idiot. Clearly I should move to England and have many hot English affairs. That, or I should be kept far far away from the country... One of the two.

• Also, why is Tom Hardy so hot. Like... stomach clenching hot. (Why yes, I will be looking for icons of him after I post this.)

• Also, this miniseries has strangely amazing music. I might have to see if I can find it somewhere.

• I make a pretty spectacular sweet tea. It's made of PG Tips (hah, I seem to be on a British theme at the moment) and it's decaf. All hail decaf tea. It makes me so delighted and not ill.

• I'm not pregnant! ...just thought you all should know.

• I am, however, counting down the days til a Blackberry becomes mine. Both of my thumbnails are broken, and this makes using a touch screen phone rather difficult and imprecise. We hates it, we does. Guys, how many of you have Blackberrys? Is Blackberry Messenger at all useful? I've seen like... 8billion commercials for it via Hulu, and it makes me wonder. Mostly it makes me wonder how it's at all different from texting. We'll see.

• Because I am leaning to associate getting a Blackberry with it, I'm thinking of getting my haircut. (Association is only because the place I get my hair cut—just Mastercuts in the mall—is near to the place I'll be getting my new phone.) Actually, since I'm letting my hair grow out to its heart's content—what a strange image—I'm thinking about getting bangs. Like... straight across bangs. Probably modeled somewhat on Leverage's Parker's bangs. Thoughts? Ideas? Criticisms? Comments? Anything at all? I have enough sense not to do this myself, at least. Y'all ought to be thankful for that. My hair grows so fast—I swear the long face-frame-bangs I got sometime before June 20th (journals are so useful for keeping track of dates) have grown an inch. I got them cut to just below my cheekbones, and they reach my chin now. So... if I totally hate having straight bangs, at least they'll grow out fast? Hah.

• I miss NYC. And my friends who are there.

• Between writing the beginning of this post and now I have downloaded the soundtrack to The Virgin Queen. It's really beautiful.

• Ever notice that the BBC has some of the most amazing TV? It has not escaped my notice that I really like a whole lot of the things that they make. Maybe I should see about getting IT ALL. (Laugh with me.)

• Time to go exercise and then sleep. (And by that I really mean watch the next part of this miniseries and then exercise and sleep.)